self mental warfare

 

Going to test out an experiment tomorrow, I have these two glass mason jars big enough to hold a handful of pens. I'm going to have 6 pens set in one jar and the other empty, for every hour I study I put a pen in the other jar

But I remember reading this method from a book about habits, that if you put your progress in a physical form it would be more impactful for keeping track of goals. Simple, and honestly don't really believe it will work, seems too good to be true. But lately I do this mental thing where I try to trick myself I will really enjoy something new anyways rather than being skeptical. Like if there was a dish in front of you that just looked and sounded disgusting, but you thought "you know what, this food is probably really good, and I think I will really like it". Is it cope? Maybe, but I've done it a few times and I think it helped.

Lately having issues with sleep again but I'm just about fixed up. Did some rendering today in 2 layers and ended up being muddy and soft brushy, but it's a good starting point to improve my rendering, as that is what I will be focusing on until my interest goes towards something else art related. Second pic shows some free-handing of drawing methods from Scott Robertson's book, How to Draw. This is preperation for his book I will be studying from, How to Render, I'll see if I can make some results.