the duality of man

You know, I spend my day with two trains of thought. One being "wow I actually don't go outside and draw anime girls", and the other, "ah yes this person's art is so good I cannot wait to never make anything like it".

Well, maybe just the first one. I don't feel all that bad about my art, but my occupation-less lifestyle is another story. Actually when I make anything that looks good in my eyes, I don't really feel satisfied, rather I don't feel embarrassed like I would when I make something awful to look at, which is uncommon so that alone feels better.

For instance the anime girl in this post, yeah, I know it's bad, I don't like it either, but it is designed entirely based off my own model. I didn't use reference and I know I can draw that in every angle that isn't hyper foreshortened, would I read a manga or watch an anime with this artstyle? No, but I took a look at my drawings from January and I've got to say, I can't believe I considered myself good at that point, it's hilarious. And just from a couple weeks recently of drawing in the anime style, I think I've gotten way better than I was before. I know what I need to work on, but it will take a couple more weeks.

Also, the image below is a homework assignment for my composition class. The original image is a Sargent piece, Breakfast in the Loggia. Had to identify compositional elements like line, mass, and form, and each are on their own layer in the psd. The form shapes are the brightest value, while the value masses are grouped with the other two values. Really made me appreciate the work he put in for the composition, the original is very pleasing for me to look at now.